tiresome. musings.
Efficiency and lack of work a happy man does not make. I have finished what I had intended to hand up on Friday today. No one else wanna give me work, so I am content to just look busy. :P
At least I am back to doing research, one of the stuff I am comfortable at. I HATE proof-reading prospectus.
Might have to do due d tomorrow tho... would be interesting...
Thoughts, as usual for me lately, drift back to her. I now truly wish her well. Was looking at the Jp site... seems like she can really make a mark there if she puts in hard work.
In all fairness, I think she is still young and confused, and perhaps not yet sure of what she wants out of life. In her moments of confusion she chose me, thinking of romance, kids and her notion of an ideal biblical wife, a homemaker.
It is not difficult to see that she does not know herself very well, even earlier on. She has the ambition, the drive and the abilities to become a corporate animal, but she had chose to see herself as the meek woman. The innate contradiction must have drove her mad! Her temperaments, suited for corporate ladder climbing, would have found poor use in a simple home.
Despite her aspiration to be a socialite, I believe her embracement of her job would actually slim down her chance. How to meet high society when you are working 20 hours a day? Not ruling out that the excuse for work is just to throw me off, but her raw energies would mean that tai-taihood would kill her.
Musings and observations aside, I wish her well in all sincerity. I also wish to remain a fren, to discuss work with, enjoy a drink or two over. After I drive of course. And suitably armed with the trappings of a lawyer. But a fren in her I would treasure, for my noting of her nobility is genuine, her charity and kindess to people beyond doubt. It is sad that things had not ended on too gay a note, but perhaps when matters die down, a frenship may yet be salvaged?
The time for mooning and mourning is past. It is the time for fallow of this field, and the start of the quest to the next. The train has left the station, going at an amble, but with faith and His blessing, will gradually pick up speed.
At least I am back to doing research, one of the stuff I am comfortable at. I HATE proof-reading prospectus.
Might have to do due d tomorrow tho... would be interesting...
Thoughts, as usual for me lately, drift back to her. I now truly wish her well. Was looking at the Jp site... seems like she can really make a mark there if she puts in hard work.
In all fairness, I think she is still young and confused, and perhaps not yet sure of what she wants out of life. In her moments of confusion she chose me, thinking of romance, kids and her notion of an ideal biblical wife, a homemaker.
It is not difficult to see that she does not know herself very well, even earlier on. She has the ambition, the drive and the abilities to become a corporate animal, but she had chose to see herself as the meek woman. The innate contradiction must have drove her mad! Her temperaments, suited for corporate ladder climbing, would have found poor use in a simple home.
Despite her aspiration to be a socialite, I believe her embracement of her job would actually slim down her chance. How to meet high society when you are working 20 hours a day? Not ruling out that the excuse for work is just to throw me off, but her raw energies would mean that tai-taihood would kill her.
Musings and observations aside, I wish her well in all sincerity. I also wish to remain a fren, to discuss work with, enjoy a drink or two over. After I drive of course. And suitably armed with the trappings of a lawyer. But a fren in her I would treasure, for my noting of her nobility is genuine, her charity and kindess to people beyond doubt. It is sad that things had not ended on too gay a note, but perhaps when matters die down, a frenship may yet be salvaged?
The time for mooning and mourning is past. It is the time for fallow of this field, and the start of the quest to the next. The train has left the station, going at an amble, but with faith and His blessing, will gradually pick up speed.
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