hollowness.
I have let go... The use of "ex" in reference to her is losing its roughness around the edges. Soon it will be a direct link made.
On objective observations, absolved of blame of anytthing: if she can ask for a breakup due to work stress, then there is no guarantee that she will not do the same a year later when it becomes real work. There is thus no point in keeping alive something that is so fragile. As an ambitious and work oriented person myself, I can understand her point of view and appreciate where she is coming from.
Given my understanding it is also more saddening to noe that because it becomes obvious to me that I rank very low to her. It is also a reminder to me - perhaps I would be like that too next year. Perhaps I would have been the one to initiate it next time round when my work goes too heavy, and her outbursts becomes a distraction. In my blind love, I had become what I do not understand - love besotted fools who do not understand the importance of time and work. I have seen the light now, and I have understood her way.
We went through the test, and we both failed. Just as well, better now than later. Better her breaking up than me. :) Yes, I realised I am selfish to the end. Perhaps the callousness never really went away after all.
On objective observations, absolved of blame of anytthing: if she can ask for a breakup due to work stress, then there is no guarantee that she will not do the same a year later when it becomes real work. There is thus no point in keeping alive something that is so fragile. As an ambitious and work oriented person myself, I can understand her point of view and appreciate where she is coming from.
Given my understanding it is also more saddening to noe that because it becomes obvious to me that I rank very low to her. It is also a reminder to me - perhaps I would be like that too next year. Perhaps I would have been the one to initiate it next time round when my work goes too heavy, and her outbursts becomes a distraction. In my blind love, I had become what I do not understand - love besotted fools who do not understand the importance of time and work. I have seen the light now, and I have understood her way.
We went through the test, and we both failed. Just as well, better now than later. Better her breaking up than me. :) Yes, I realised I am selfish to the end. Perhaps the callousness never really went away after all.
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