mixed feelings.

In a way, I am happy she has moved on to happier pastures. In fact, one that is ideal, by her standards. In a way, I felt that by letting her go then, I gave her the greatest gift I could have ever given to her.

On the other hand I fell somewhat pained. So fast.
Thoughts that I was asked to move on so she can do so in peace irked me somewhat too. As man, I am entitled to such selfish thoughts. But anyway, it is in the past, so I should not have any quarrels with what is to be. It is just the images that haunt.

God, give me grace and mercy, that I may forget the hurts and move on as well.