1 mth anni

Was syncronising my phone... and inevitably read all the past messages. Realised how lovey dovey we were just 1 mth plus ago... The cracked showed on the 22nd May... and its a mth later now, exactly. It is funny, how last month, I would never have imagined myself single, sad, and moving on.

Life is funny. Small things do have big consequences. I sure hope she'd return my frenship someday. Perhaps she is irritated now, perhaps she is sad now. But all I know is, I should not disturb her now.
I go to sleep, wistful yet sad. It would have been a good relationship. We were so alike yet so disalike. It might have worked. I had ignored the small things. Small things turn big and eats things up. Wonderful memories, like how she'd baby talk. All gone I guess. Not even frens. Sigh...

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