maligned

I suddenly feel very victimised. If she analogised herself as being hurt for being in the wrong place at the wrong time, then what about me? I am being criminalised for someone else's crimes!
What did I do that I so convicting to deserve severance?

I feel horrid for entertaining such thots, but thats cos I feel horrible. I miss her like crazy.. no longer the spastic, emotional post break type, but more of a sombre, background kinda thing. All the more insidious I feel, cos it pops uo everywhere, anyhow, anytime. LIke how I was shopping at lucky plaza... it just flashed back.
I had to flee the place.
Pathetic

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