X.

Hi, My name is X.

It is funny, how my advised had been endorsed, followed, and blogged... Damn, I should have charged!!! But in all truth, I wish them happiness.

I advised as such, cos I experienced it... twice!

The first time, as the party unwilling to give... But the difference was that I was willing to compromise... BIG mistake. Never force the other party to do what he/she is not mentally prepared to do. I was compromised (manipulated) into doing more than I was willing, and as time goes by, everuthing became a drag... The drag force caused friction, the friction erupted into flames, and the flames burned up everything there ever was.

Maybe cos the burning was so complete, that after it ended, I never really learnt. Because there was no wounds when it was gone, no testamentary tomb to mark its end, I had no chance to look back hence to recall it. Untill now.

The second time, I was the party who gave more. I think it started out as me giving less though. I am selfish, so I dun always trust with my everything. BUT, I was quickly won over. I think it is just my character: I give no trust at all, and will doubt all purpose. But if my trust is won, I will trust with everything. That includes me giving everything. Guilt mixed with trust is a potent mixture that got me sticking like glue. The poison was too strong in me by then - and the pressure from not receiving what I gave was too much. The poison boiled over, ate up everything, leaving behind a great white tomb, of scorched heart and bleached bones.

Thus, I advised that my fren withhold a bit before giving her all. I believe myself qualified to give advise, considering how I had been at both sides. I was actually warned by my old fren on this, but I had not heeded it... I regret now.... and pass the knowledge on...

I wish my frens happiness. What I could not have, they will have.


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Anonymous said…
hehehe.. you are so sweet
2:28 am
Zachary Shim said…
You r one of the rare few to find me so. :)
2:31 am
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